Tomorrow it'll have been a year since Mom died.

*tugs at hair* I'm going to cut it sometime this week. Maybe Monday or Tuesday. I didn't think I'd last the year just continuously leaving it long, but before I knew it, November 28 has come upon us. I left it long for her. She loved my hair.

I never wanted to go to church before. I want to so badly

Dad's worried about me. I don't blame him. *head scratch* I don't think I'm depressed though. I tried to at least reassure him that whatever I'm going through, it's not gonna wind up with me dead, you know? No Dad, not going to commit suicide ( Read more... )

It's official: Mom passed away Saturday afternoon ( Read more... )

Mom's being moved to Westchester Medical today; they might have a liver for her ( Read more... )

I spoke to Mom over the phone; she's fine, more or less, and is looking to be released tonight or tomorrow. Yay! Except where I, and others, probably want her to stay for more observation.

Urinary track infection, they say.

Mom is lucid. And mad at Dad, because he's not taking her from the hospital. Hmmm, wonder why.

I'm going up Friday for the weekend. I shall return Sunday or Monday. Chances are Sunday, if Dad has work Monday. Sigh.

It was her ammonia levels, I'm hearing. I didn't doubt it.

But as long as she's alive.

I picked up the phone ( Read more... )

I was hit on by a black guy yesterday afternoon. Good god. Do not want ( Read more... )

So, we finally had that emotional breakdown some days ago. 8D Okay, I had one. Alex might have brought the emotional turmoil on himself, but seeing him trying not to cry, well, hells. I lost it. Almost shattered the milk jug while putting it in the fridge and /bolted/, for the woods of all places (it was the only direction I could go in). And I'm ( Read more... )

I have nothing but concern for my mom. She's forgetting things, her responses are slow, and her shaking has gotten to a point where she can no longer hold onto cups and such. She's tired, she's stressed, and she's probably depressed, and I just sent her out in her car because I can't drive, so I can't take Ian to the bus stop for her. And yet she ( Read more... )